Nerd

Note to self:
STUDY STUDY STUDY!
STOP PLAYING! STOP PLAYING! STOP PLAYING!

Maze

Someone (shall not mention names here) talked to me about ‘trust’ yesterday at work. I finally realized that the world is too complicated and realistic you can really trust no one except yourself. I was really surprised that someone really shared alot with me, I like those little chit-chat session where you get to know people better. One thing that I used to know and but couldn’t apply – don’t be too emotional attached into the things you’re doing. You do things, you expect 2 different outcomes, positive & negative. Things aren’t perfect and it will never go in your way. By letting yourself be too emotional attached to things, you’re making your emotions operate like a roller coaster. Don’t put faith in the uncertainty, never, because it can corrupt you.

I know and I know and I know myself. I know where is the weakest part of me, I know where do I stand. I just fucking and seriously hate it when I am blinded by different perspectives and continue walking forward without me knowing that I am entering into a maze. Whenever I am in a maze, I feel lost, I feel frustrated. The more I struggle to get out of that place, the more I will be tired, the more I will just let nature take its course. I need a helicopter to rescue me, take me out of the whole picure.

Work was fine yesterday. It seems like nobody followed Marvin’s deployment. HAHA. I was in Bar when I am supposed to be at service. What really touches me was the customer’s feedback form (: I went out to take orders yesterday when everyone was busy. So I was at one table’s service. Eventually they wanted to shift over to a table that is at the corner. I volunteered to help them shift before they even suggest anything. Tried my best to make it fast and clean. They were really thankful. Sometimes it’s just your job and your responsibilities to do things. But yet it can touch people so much. Learn to do things not because you want to be appreciated. Learn to do things because you care (:

Ironically Life is like a maze. Don’t be worried when your life is rocky, but be worried when your life is smooth-sailing.

I know I will be working with 2 fun people later on! Gonna train myself to be better (: Report writing time! Adios readers!

You’ve decided

It wasn’t too long ago I realized the unbelievable things you said fixed itself quite well in the whole picture. It wasn’t too long ago I realized I gave you more trust. more than I could ever imagine. It wasn’t too long ago I start to express myself to you in my own manner. But why do I feel that Imma like a chess piece in your hands? Like you’re controlling every move forward, be it right or wrong? Maybe I should wait til you say ‘check mate’ and I know the game is over.

Ignorance is a bliss

Truly I believe that, for once. Just observe, observe. Use your heart to feel, your eyes to see, your mind to guide your way. I don’t believe in myself, never once. Ignore and ignore. Throw all these unneccessary things away.

I need to simplify things, not complicating it.

Moving on

One thing that hinders me from moving on is Faith.

Thanks Jie for shopping with me! I got my first berms and topman hoodie! So happy to wear my hoodie (: The colors are striking leh, I like (: She got 30% staff discount for me, thanks (: Gonna get new bag soon! I need a new bag, my own bag (:

Take care forever.

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Smile for me

I like to see your genuine smile, maybe that’s the reason why I prefer browsing through your photos (:

 

Webcam!

I used to hate webcamming (: But after using it much with study mates on ooVoo for during exam period and also some random friends on msn, I think webcamming is quite cool uh! (: Ps: I couldn’t find a nicer webcam picture for this post.

Always webcam with Pengz & Suz. Yesterday YK went to Pengz house so it was my first time webcamming with her (: Super hilarious because she kept making me laugh non-stop. So in the end, she became my passive twin! (: Movie together next week. Topman Hoodie when I get paid? I want a hoodie leh! I need new bag and some really decent clothes right now lah. My jeans are torn & tattered already, and the color faded liao, need to get new ones! Okay, I ain’t rich but I wanna get more things. Sian until don’t know what.

I’ve completed bizlaw quiz online. I’ve finally touched some lecture notes and really read through to understand last midnight. I think Imma getting slowly right on track. Study Study Study! Working afterwards. Gonna get a decent book for the SOP, thanks Ade for lending me hers! (:

Gonna leave the house soon to school! Ciao readers!

Thousands of Apologies

I need to apologise for many different things. I realized it has been a burden for me and I need to let it go.

Since school started I’ve always been sticking to my holiday lifestyles. My studies are really affected. For the past month of school doesn’t even felt like school days to me. Late nights almost everyday, people around me said I changed, maybe not a positive change. I need to study, really need to focus on my studies. I need to manoeuvre myself back on track. Let’s reduce the tendency to slack okay! Let’s really focus on studies okay!

Thousands of apologies to my project group mates also. It seems like I’m always late for meeting, always need to rush off early. It seems like no matter how much I want to complete the work I am given effectively, I always ended up don’t know what am I supposed to do. I was left with deep thoughts last night and really am frustrated with myself. I need to wake up, someone give me 1 tight slap can?

Study & work. No more play.

Complication

Some things cannot be reused, reduced & recycled.

I realized that I have been losing focus on the things I am suppose to excel in, because I’ve been distracted by everything around me. I need to get myself right on track. I wished that holidays haven’t ended because I like to hang out with Pengz & friends. I reached home 3am plus yesterday again, and skipped the first lecture today – CB. I am gonna start revising for the upcoming MST. Time to be on track! Jiayou KY! (: