Mug Mug Mug!

So far so good. 2 down, 3 more to go! I’ve majority of my brain cells killed due to those memorizing parts! Urgh! Don’t ask me to understand, cos it’s impossible to do that without memorizing, still. But I am thankful for my study mates! (: They are always there to make sure doubts are cleared. I used to like shutting myself up and study all by myself. I am willing to teach and help others, but only when I am 100% confident I am done with all those topics. Right now, I am slowly adapting to another learning style, which I think, is not that bad afterall (:

HRM tomorrow, BizLaw & FEB down, I am gonna ACE in ALL, I am so gonna be motivated to chiong 3 more days! Going down to my boutique most probably tomorrow to mug with my study mates. I hope my pay arrive already leh! Too broke now sigh. Adios Readers! (:

Natually Beautiful

You know how heartwarming is it to see a natural smile? Been so long since I observe that from anyone, or even from myself. To be happy seems simple. To wish people being happy seems common. But to really be happy is a challenge. I remembered that, being happy or sad is an emotion, but to smile is a choice (: Needa be cheerful always.

I am really appreciative that people care, especially when I am always being blended into the background nicely. Sometimes people would not notice that I actually exist. Sounds sadistic? Nah, it’s a fact actually. I can walk behind a group of friends for hours without talking, what’s much worse than that? (: But I really do appreciate people. A small acts of service touches my heart. A small attention on me bring a smile across my face (:

I need to stand strong. I need to go thru so much more to reach my maturity stage. I need to learn to be optimistic. And really, I’ve found someone whose attributes is all what I have to learn in my lifetime. I really hope we’ll be friends forever, or maybe besties forever. Besties sounds so gay, but well….. haha.

Bizlaw is down today. I shall sing Jay Sean’s ‘Down’ to Bizlaw now haha! FEB in 13 hours’ time! I am turning in, and continuing revision when I am up! Adios readers! (: Stay happy!

MST! :(

Wah, I hope my brain is BIG enough to squeeze all information in Because 5 out of the 6 modules I am taking right now is all memorizing skill one ._. 5 more papers to go, and tomorrow will be the start of the first one, Business Law. Wah, head big already

I am really thankful for friends around me. I appreciate small chats and really a mini catch up session. My classmates in school did see the changes in me. Although it wasn’t built overnight, and I can’t really sense a major change, but yeah I do agree, I’ve changed, for the better or for the worse. I love my study mates (: We should really bond to be closer. I hope there’s class outing too, I wanna spend more time with my classmates (:

I am so gonna concentrate on my exam (: Adios readers!

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Fictitious

Take off your mask and I’ll take off mine.

I detest people who does bootlicking. I don’t show doesn’t mean I don’t know. I observe people and the happenings around me. I really appreciate people who are true, no matter how they express themselves.

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It’s over; Goodbye

Decided not to have another locked up post which contains all my screaming because today is yet another day I felt that I am like a mute once again. Too much thoughts, yet too little to contain. I’ve ran out of vocabulary to describe my feelings deep inside, all I can say that maybe it’s time to get unto another phase of life. I was someone that kept looking back, hoping I could rewind some imperfect memories and try to perfect it. But now, I am someone who look forward because the future is something that I am expecting to come, so that I can meet new people and move on. Keep moving on, because time don’t wait for you. Fall hard, but stand up. I am learning how to stand up immediately.

Sometimes when you expect someone to be there for you whenever you fall, and the person didn’t appear, you feel disappointed. But I’ve just experienced a totally different thing. Sandy jie left me an offline message, how sweet of her (: I miss ELMO, Sandy Dajiejie, Vincent Dagege and all of the NTUC Rawkers! Can we meet up soon? Someone just organise a dinner somewhere okay! All make time to meet up okay! (: It’s time for a catch up.

I know there’s misunderstanding somewhere between me and anyone today. But I didn’t spend the effort clearing it. Perhaps my heart was too numbed already, or perhaps I was expecting them to trust me. But nope, they didn’t. I don’t play the game of trust anymore. Because I’ve built my heart in a way, that no one could step into my personal life anymore. Except those whom I already trusted them. Nah, childish game, too childish for me to carry it.

Life goes on. With or without you. I just want you to realize, somewhere along my life, you’re someone once important to me. You made me believe in things, but now you destroyed alot of beliefs I had. It’s over, because life went back to where it was, in the beginning. With the many chances you had, you still doubted me, you didn’t choose to trust me. Don’t say you did, because I really didn’t see it. I can’t feel it. Everyone carries different weightage in my heart. You need to learn to take care of yourself more. Goodbye forever, and take care.

Well, life goes on (:

陳奕 需要愛

I am still deeply in love with this song. I love all its lyrics, duper meaningful.

P/s: I want to have a house as white & bright like this (:

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Motivation

My motivation is back. I remembered what Mikki has taught me, to always see a bigger picture of the modules that you’re going to be examined, then plan for the schedule ahead. This is the best strategy because you definitely know where you’re heading to.

I admit that I’ve played a month and a half of my first term away. Since everything shuffled in my family, the changes I have in making friends, I know there is a huge change within me already. I am still learning, still growing up. But putting that aside, studies are still something I need to be good in, and I need to have achievement. Was super confused about all the modules that I am taking right now, but now I guess I’ve sorted out my revision plan. I am already 75% done with FM, 50% done with CB & 50% done with BizLaw. I think it’s a good progress. Because I am going to continue my revision (: This time I am solely depending on myself.

I like the people that I always study with, like Pengz and Suz, because they are part of my motivation. Sometimes you just like to sit beside designers because they have a strong focus and unique aura that will motivate you to go on. Yeah, that’s them. I like to study with them too. I’ve my own study mates in school too, gonna meet them up really soon for tight revision. Doing my part right now, gonna keep moving on. Jiayou!

This is not the time to be distracted with unnecessary stuff.